gOOD TIMES AND BAD TIMES

Would you prefer to know when bad & good times are going to run in your life?? Do you?I have a very close friend who believes in knowing what time they are in to ensure they can find some workout to fix it if it is bad.. They have been doing it all their life.. Putting all their energy in fixing their life.. But the reality is you have to face it how much ever you try to fix it.... That is reality... Dont compare, dont overstress. Just deal with it..
I believe that good times and bad times are here to stay.. How much ever you pray or you not pray you will still have to face them? Bad times give you experience, experience to know better things that will change your outlook towards life... and unless you face bad times, unless you feel the pain, you wont really be able to celebrate good times.. you wont really feel the difference when good time have arrived... Go gear up.. dont becomes helpless and laid back because its bad time... Feel it, try to fix urself for better... Thank God for all the Happiness he has given you. Thand god for all the times he has asked you to face... Everything is for a purpose. Dont let your life go waste....

Weekend Special

Yesterday we fought like kids. It was a beautiful Sunday. For once in a week, we slept our whole quota of sleep of 8 hours. O I just realized we woke and had a small fight too.. He has this habit of chatting with females as a past time while watching his late night football games. I of course fall asleep and I hate that habit of his. But as usual he cant help it.. Morning as usual I was angry and he said to believe in our love for each other. He assured me that there was nothing to worry.. And he didn’t even chat. hmmmm He said he will put my picture in front.. Why would I say NO :P

We had out brunch.. I did some manicure and pedicure for him and myself and then we watched movies together.. And then we decided to buy some mutton to have a special dinner. Both got ready and I said “ I was feeling hungry”. Actually I meant we both didn’t have our second meal till now. He immediately asked to have the drink of boost that I made for him in the afternoon which he didn’t have and so kept in the fridge. I lovingly asked him to share it with me.. May be I said it so many times that he got irritated and became rigid and just said he wont.. I was pissed off and so was he. And there goes our plan in the dustbin.. 8.00pm getting late, shops would get closed and he comes to me and says “let’s go”. I off course didn’t feel like and also the rice was getting cooked. Leaving it in the middle was a very bad Idea. He got pissed off and he went back to watch the game between Nadal & Federer. I changed to go to the nearest kirana shop and asked him to join me. He obviously was not interested and so I went all by myself. Then came the hell.. He got hurt ‘how could I leave him and go all by myself’.. I couldn’t help it.. I had to get the urgent ingredients to get a decent dinner ready. He left the house for a long walk without letting me know. When I realized, I went to look for him and he was no where to be found. Even the car was lying in the shed. I called him and he said “why did I even bother”.. I screamed on him and finally said I am coming out to look for him.. Within minutes he was back home as he knew the place was not so good for a girl to roam alone. Even I knew that :P that’s why I said. Obviously he didn’t wanted to show his smile.. He said he was not hungry. Now somebody had to wind this fight up and get back to normal :) so I asked what did he have.. he said about the stuff similar to what we had last night :P I said I was not hungry either… I couldn’t help but laugh.. I tried to kiss him but why would he even let me come near him.. But I tried my best.. And end of it, he pulled me near and kissed me lovingly :) My sweetipie… Within seconds he jumped on to the dinning table and starting serving food onto my plate!!!! I tried stop him. He said we both will eat together :) Hmmmm… how can I be angry with such a loving creature :P We both ate on one plate and had one of the tastiest meal flavored with our love

I dont know whats happening.. Life's just getting out of my control.. Dont really know why things are going out of control.. I need to take the control back.. I need to take care of myself.. may be because I have started relating my happines on my lover's happiness... But whats wrong in that.. Is it not supposed to be like that.. Shoudlnt we be lost in love when you have true love with you. Should you be cautious still.. Should you take care of urself alone.. Cant you depend on him/her.... I dont know the answers.. But i cant see my self deteriorating.. I am going to do what I feel is appropriate.. I am going ot enjoy my life.. My happiness will no longer depend on anyone.. not even my lover because its painful.. very painful.. I am not going to stop or put rules on anyone.. Thats not how I wanted to achieve my desires.. They will come themselves... they will come themselves.............

December 2007 Road trip

End of Decemeber and Vacation time.. Not really able to decide where to go.. Marriage in September had actually bore a hole in our pockets and we still wanted to enjoy our vacation time somehow... We decided to go on a road trip and that to from Hyderabad to Kerala via Bangalore.... I had been busy surfing net to ensure that we had every single thing arranged for our road trip and was ready with my list. I had still not learnt driving but that didnt detter Sweetu to finalise the trip.. He was going to drive all that distance (2000kms)himself and I would be holding on to my Safety belt next to him.. He got the car serviced a day before The day. Packed in out clothes, toiletaries, first aid, Eatables, Bottles of drinking water, waste Newspapers (to wipe the glass), waste clothes, Bottle of water to clean the glass and for the wiper... Collection of our favourite music Cds. Hopefully all set..

We started on 22nd 4 pm from Hyderabad to Bangalore joined by one of his colleagues at the last moment. To leave Hyderabad at 4pm was a bad choice because it was going to take 12 hours to reach Bangalore early morning next day.. But we went ahead... We were on NH 7 and to tell you frankly didnt quite like to be on it.. NH 7 streach from Hyderabad to Bangalore was still not complete and we had no choice but to ride next to the traffic in the opposite direction.. But there were some portions that were ready and it was amazing feeling to fly over them. Yeah we were speeding at 120 - 140km/hr and it was too good :P
It was a good experience that was beyond words... All my pictures keep reminding me of the distance & emotions we collected on our way

2007 is ending and I just cant believe that...

I just didnt realise how the whole year went by.. I was here last december telling my self that I am going to make it special and its december again and I bet the whole year has been awesome n quite eventufl... I was pampered, admired loved a lott... Had the beautiful trips to Kodaikanal, Goa & Hyderabad and finally moved there to live with my Husband.. And Hyderabad is beautiful.. Just ignore its developemental facts, Nature is beautiful here...... I thought I wont love the extreme weather but extreme weathers have their own charms.. You just keep waiting for the next season to come on :)

Marriage is........

Its been 3 months into our marriage. And experiences are beyond the feelings of 2 persons living under the same roof. Its about living with eachother expecations, eachothers feelings, eachother preferences.. Sometimes I feel I am far too independant than I should be... Marriage is about doing things together for eachother, giving eachother space but everything should be in a limit... There is a limit which if crossed takes away the love thats involved for eachother in those moments... I love him and miss him a lot when he is not around. And when we are together we are electric but till that limit.. Once things gets overdone by mistake, love just tries to run away... Too much of everything is bad for Health and thats true even in love.. have started to notice the levels when it is about to go beyond the limit.. I have this friend who got married around the same time as ours and was hyper excited about the whole event.. He wanted a beautiful wife who would be there waiting at home when he comes back from work in the evening and take care of him. He found the girl of his dreams. I spoke to him recently and asked him "How is life?" and he quietly soundedd "its going on". This was a complete contrast of him when I spoke to him before his marriage. I asked him what happened, why are you sounding so bored in life and his reply "I am getting the ENOUGH feeling" .. I got what he wanted to say.. He never wanted his wife to work, never wanted her go out alone and now when thats the reality he is not able to cope up with the attention he is getting from his wife for whom he is the whole world. He was not getting his own personal space. I was not surprised.. This had to happen.. The poor girl must not be even realising that something of this sort is happeniing... This is a situation when married housewives have nothing & nobody else to think about in this world. Their whole aim in life is to keep their husbands happy and pamper them... and husbands unknowlingly start getting the feeling that they dont have their personal space anymore...
So the best solution is taking a break... from the usual mundane activities of everyday life
We are going for a road trip to Southern India.. It would be an adventourous, exploring, exhausting trip but will be very exciting n interesting to deal with Nature together ... talk to you later

Thoughts

It had been a long time that I had held a baby and took care of it for days toghether... Its a very different feeling that I am missing that kid. I was telling myself and to him no no its so difficult to handle a kid of this age (4 months... While I was along with that kid, I was so preoccupied in entertaining him that I really didnt realise that I was getting so attached to him. I was just going through the snaps we took and i am now missing my home, my sweetheart and definitely ahaan and his sweet parents.. Ahaan mom is a darling, so caring and so patient.. Its very rare to find her kind of people in today's world.